Accidental Abandonment

What was on my mind

The phrase ‘Accidental Abandonment’ said in conversation and landed heavy. In the best way possible, in the kind of conversation that makes the heavy feel lighter.

How I walk through what I created

Accidental Abandonment
As in grieving a loved one. But also as in self-abandonment.
As in I never meant that to happen, didn’t even realize it was happening. 

Two houses, one dark and the other warm light. She is positioned between them but moving to the dark house. (Stuck in the middle, forced to choose. Tragic and Unfair.)

Texture over heart, bleeding or pouring out. Contrasted with stoic expression. She has no idea she is in pain. Disconnected from her own experience. 

The dark house is in the background image I used. The lighted house is from the portrait image, where she is already inside.

You see, it is with her in any landscape she enters. She never really abandons the lighted house, simply loses sight of this truth.

“A picture can never be explained or labeled with absolute finality. Experience in art therapy has repeatedly shown that meditation on the significance of the image for its maker and/or interpreter furthers, rather than obstructs, the making of art. Meditations on images and talking about them amplify their expression and help us to see things that we did not see before.”
-Shaun McNiff, Art as Medicine